Marching on…

It is amazing how fast time flies by and we don’t even realise it. We’re already into the third month of the year. And at the back of my mind I am thinking about all the things I have planned for 2015; things I hope to achieve, personal goals.

I am aware that my reality is that I may not achieve everything I want to when I want to. But I’m certainly going to give it my best shot.

The last few weeks have been quite good, overall. I have made some positive changes in my life, and am seeing the fruits of my hard work.

Here’s to hoping that the month of March is a positive, prosperous one.

It’s Lovey-Dovey Day!

I love love! It’s as simple as that. That warm, fuzzy feeling when you’re around the people who mean the most to you. In my case, I have 3. My kids and their father.

We are not a conventional family. But there’s enough love to fill the galaxy and beyond 😉 I absolutely love watching my kids with their father; the way their eyes light up when they are together. It warms my heart.

Having this love and celebrating it every day is a gift I’ll treasure forever.

On this Valentine’s Day, filled with romance in the air, I choose to celebrate a love beyond that of just a man and woman. I celebrate and give thanks for the two beautiful children we brought into this world, and this family we are now.

Love!

Letting Go

A few years ago I made a decision to let go of all negative people and things in my life. Albeit after already having gone through the most tumultuous time, I was still able to accept that I had to end toxic relationships and past hurts. One thing I didn’t know was that it’s not a one-time decision, with a clean slate. Years later I still have to remind myself all the time that I am stronger than all the anger and resentment I harboured as a teenager and young adult.

Thankfully, my life’s focus is now my little family. I have two beautiful children, a partner/lover/best friend I totally appreciate, and a strong relationship with my father. I am content with the decision I made and am proud of being able to forgive those that wronged me. I have also forgiven myself for all things I’ve said and done that should not have been.

I would advise anyone that is holding on to grudges, fear, hurt, disappointment and anger to let it go. Enjoy the present and gift of tomorrow.

My life’s work

“Children are not a distraction from more important work. They are the most important work.” – C.S. Lewis

Something I’ve seriously been reminded of these last few days. I had to return to work following three months of maternity leave. Juggling two kids under the age of 3, a stressful job and taking care of home is definitely not easy. But I know where my priorities lie. Quite simply, if I don’t believe that my children are happy, then I’m not doing what’s best for them.

And that for me is my most important work.

Potty Training: Take 1

My nerves are shot!

I’m (belatedly, I admit) trying to potty train my son. Somehow I’m more nervous about this than all the exams I’ve written to get a degree!

I only hope there will be minimal mishaps. I’ve read up and listened to advice from others, but for some reason, I feel like this is something I will struggle with, so much so that I’ve been avoiding it (silly, I know…).

Here goes… 😉

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P.S. Slowly but surely wins the race, right? We’ve been at it for a few days now, with some accidents now and again. But I can tell that Z is getting the hang of it. He’s already been complaining of the nappy, and wants to wear his underpants all the time. Although I know he’s not quite ready for that, I know its a step in the right direction.

Working Mum Guilt

My 2 kids are my pride and joy. I simply love being their mother and thank God for the blessings I have with my children.

My life’s mission is to give my babies the absolute best I can. I also know that I cannot be a perfect mum, but I can confidently say I am the best mum possible to them.

However, in all that I say and do, I can’t help but feel a bit of guilt. With current-day situations, a lot of my time is spent making sure that my family is well taken care of. But that leaves very little (or just not enough) time to spend with my family. There’s so much I’d love to do, but with work and home, I lose out on valuable memory-making time with my children. Time I know I can never get back.

In my desire to be the best mum, am I doing the opposite? I don’t think so. It is my duty to ensure my babies have decent shelter, education and food. I, however, have challenged myself to give them the absolute best. Because I want to. I always envision the type of life I’d like my family to live. And it will take a bit of hard work on my part.

It will all be worth it soon, I know.

So I just need to remind myself every day that I do not have to feel guilty about being a loving, caring mum.